Saturday, October 03, 2015

Notes that don't belong anywhere else

I don't enjoy writing about my insecurities
I much rather write about pretty faces
But all the beauty in the world does me no good
When I'm in one of these moods...

I always thought airports were fun places
Changing planes, on the way to new experiences
Now I'm in one, sitting alone, desperate to get home
And my perspective shifts...

I'm worried about the future
I'm worried about the now
I'm worried about having to be social
When I would rather be on my own.

( Yet again Jenny Lawson says:












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He told me I must've a big heart
I never thought about myself that way
What a weird thing to say to someone you've just met
He must've been drunk or high
No, sweetie, I don't have a big heart
What does it all have to do with heart anyways
I was just trying to make small talk
I didn't really meant half of the things I said.
He told me he felt exhausted, brain-dead
He had a nice smile, though, I give him that
So I wrote this whole verse about our brief encounter
And made sure it somewhat rhymes with his name.

Seeing ghosts

Stranger with the memorable face
Are you a ghost?
Or am I imagining you
Whenever I'm in one of these places
Where we remain anonymous
Hiding behind our name tags...

I think about the future and despair
These are not my people
All these polished masses
All social, sociable, secure in their steps
And I try to blend in, hiding in plain sight.

I saw you having lunch alone
Sitting at a table, all on your own
Seems impossible when I think about it
I must've imagined it
I must be imagining you
Looking for an excuse to distract myself.

Ghost with a pretty face
I've yet to see you smile
Must look magnificent on you
Will I ever learn your name?
Or will I forget all about you once more
Until I see you in such a place again?

It's the last day, I'm tired
My head is hurting
I miss my home, I miss my routine
Yet I know you're sitting two rows behind
I followed you there, then acted casual
Suddenly I turn my head and you've disappeared
The world closes up around me.

Maybe I should consider a career change
If I need ghosts to anchor me to these places...