Lost

I have this feeling of loss

It creeps in from the corners of my house

It follows me from a distance, 

Hiding, in the shadows

I kick the leaves around, searching for it

I look in between the autumn clouds

I stare at my screen, for hours and hours

I don't know what I have lost

I don't even want to find it, it's just the feeling

As if telling me that not everything is alright

And I'm scared that this might be true