Words on words

You have to walk a lonesome desert
You have to walk it all alone
There is no one to walk it for you

My words, drunken butterflies in the wind
My castles made of snow, melting away
In a world seemingly too good to be true
Searching for trouble all the way through

My dreams, with huge wings and countless colors
- Up to the clouds, up to the sun -
Where I am going to, what is what I want?
Why am I still such a stupid child?

My words, always looking for a place to hide
I fear your fury, I fear your sadness
I fear like hell, losing you on the way
But this crazy mind of mine,
Always on the thin line....

My words, looking for a way

for a damn crack or a forgotten pass

here or there

My fears, my dreams, my sorrows, my passions
All in one, one in all
Like a million snowflakes, adding to the avalanche
Like a million seagulls, aimlessly - arrow-like

Let me stop right where you are
let me settle down, at least for a while...

Writing to forget

It's hard to describe this feeling
This indecision, this ever changing state of mind
One moment I feel so strong, so indifferent
That I could just do anything
A few hours pass then, and I change again
I feel hurt, my pride's on the ground
And all I can do is escaping to sleep

Why can't we speak more openly?
Why wouldn't you tell me what you think of me?
Just a pretty face from around,
Or a girl to fall in love with

if things were different,

Or, most probably, a mistake not to be spoken of?

I don't even know why I want to know
Since it probably won't change anything at all...

I wish

I wish I was a fallen leaf, entangled somewhere in your hair
I wish I was the ocean breeze, caressing you tender
I wish I could fall asleep in your arms every night
And see you still by my side with the morning light...

I wish I could get so drunk
that I sober up from the real life
And get loose from all the chains coming with it.
I wish there was you and me and no one else
Because I'm too tired, I can't fight anymore...

What next

about how easy it is,

to create an illusion and then
end up believing in it...

Stay still, for a moment
Let me watch you, 
                              through and through
You are like a reflection of the misty
                                                               evening sky
You are like a moment of silence,
                                                          in the morning rush
Looking at you is finding a long lost piece
                                                                         of the ancient puzzle
And also encountering a memory
and realizing that it doesn't hurt
                                                         anymore...
Let me feel you, with my fingertips
Like a blind one,
                            going through all your skin
Like sailing to the ocean,
                                          leaving the compass behind
Like shutting up my conscience,
                                                         screaming inside
Let me believe, for just a little while
That this is not the real world
And we won't be getting on
                                              with the daily routine

                                                                     for the rest of our lives...

Confusing Eyes

All the distant sunsets in your eyes
All the forgotten lands
And their heroes, dead and buried
In your eyes, the sound of the waves
from silent nights with a full moon
Something ancient, yet struggling to be remembered
Something not yet born, but long prophesied
It's like I have known you all my life
And all the previous ones I had (if any)
It's like I didn't even meet you yet
A stranger of infinite beauty
But still so close, that no man ever could be
Oh, those eyes, with so many things to tell/hide
Do I have to get that confused
Every time you look at me?